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"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts"
It feels like a thousand sharp knives stabbing every inch of your body. It hurts to breathe, to speak, to blink. It hurts to think about it, but it's all you can think about. You wonder how someone you loved so much could ever have the ability to hurt you so badly. You close your eyes and you see your future - with that person - shattered to pieces. Everything you once believed in now makes no sense. You wonder what's worth living for any more.
As the weeks pass by, the pain slowly subsides. Tears stop streaming down your face. You begin to feel things other than heartache. You begin to realize that you do have a future beyond that person. You realize that your life was good before them, and it will be good again now that they're gone. So you peel yourself off your couch and you cleanse yourself of any memories of that person. It's all too painful, you think to yourself.
"You ever love somebody so much, you could barely breathe when you with 'em?"
The first year is always the hardest. The loneliness becomes palpable. You wonder if you'll ever find happiness. You wonder if you'll ever fall in love again. You wonder if you'll ever know what it's like to feel something for someone again.
As time goes by, the wounds begin to heal. You cover up the loneliness and the unhappiness with something else, just as you would cover up a blemish. But just because you cover it up, doesn't mean that it still doesn't hurt. And like an open wound, when it heals it leaves a scar. A broken heart never completely heals; Something is always left behind - memories, pictures, gifts - that becomes the scar.
Eventually, you get your life back together. This time, it's all about me! you say to yourself. You pick up the broken pieces and figure out how to put it all back together. Because this time it's about new beginnings, feeling happy, and finding someone to fall in love with... again.
You force yourself to cope with the break up and get yourself back out there. You date a few people, but in the back of your head, you know they don't stack up. That spark just isn't there. You start to wonder if you'll ever feel that passion you once felt.
And as the years pass by, when you finally get your life together and begin to feel happy and feel like you can finally believe in something, it all comes crashing down on you. That wall you built up so strong, crumbles instantly. Those feelings you locked up, break out. Someone who was once your best friend and lover, forces their way back into your life and all you can say is, why now?
"Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well, that's alright because I love the way you lie"
