{{This post is part of #reverb10, an annual event and month-long online initiative to reflect on this year and manifest what's next for 2011.
December 24th Prompt: Everything's OK. What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything's going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?}}
My plan was to ring in 2011 with good friends, re-brand my nonprofit organization, and start graduate school. But then all of the shit hit the fan at once, and I found myself curled up in a ball on my couch, blindly staring at my television, feeling crippled. I didn't want to do anything or go anywhere. I just wanted to lay. I haven't felt that type of crippling since June 2003.
My plan instantly shattered when my law firm announced dissolution. I knew it was coming, but I didn't realize it would be so soon. We never fully prepare ourselves for these types of moments. I didn't have a back-up plan. I didn't think I would need one because I never thought my law firm would dissolve.
And then someone sent me something:
"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."
I had read it before - many times, in fact - but this time, it really hit me. Little bits of motivation and inspiration from a wonderful person to push me to continue doing what I do best. That's what friends are for - to push you when you feel crippled; to help you in times when you need their help the most.
It was a small gesture with a powerful punch, but it was exactly what I needed to realize that I'm going to be okay. I'm so much stronger than this, and life really does move on.
Everything's going to be okay.
So for that, I thank you.
* title from Bob Marley's Everything's Gonna Be Alright
