Trial and error. Test runs. Experiments. Chances. Risks.
Everything we do, every lesson we learn, and every mistake we make starts out as a risk, a chance, a test run. We test the waters of a new career or job. We take a chance on a relationship. We risk starting over to find our own happiness.
After a while though, after all of the experiments, test runs, chances, and risks, and underneath all of the shit and the tears and the failure you begin to learn that you are worth it. You learn that not every connection will turn into a long-lasting friendship and not every spark will turn into a relationship. You learn that something that turned your world upside down (in the good way) can tear you to pieces in an instant. You learn that sometimes following your heart isn't always the right thing and that sacrifices always come at an emotional cost. You learn to not believe everything you hear and that promises can be broken. You learn how to put yourself first in a way that everyone else won't understand, but it doesn't really matter what they think, as long as it's right for you. You learn that happiness is fleeting but it shows you how to live for the moments. You learn that loneliness can be excruciatingly painful but if you can sit with it, it will make you a stronger person.
But most importantly, you learn how to start over. Again. And again. And again. Because you've already done it once, in a place you thought made you happy. And now you have to do it again. In a new city. To find new happiness and new adventures and new gratitude. But it's not because you're running away from what you started; it's because you know what you're worth and you're going to get it.
