Wednesday, June 11, 2008

The Girl


I believe in laughing till it hurts.  I believe in soul mates.  I believe in second chances and learning from your mistakes.  I believe in forgiving but not forgetting.  I believe that you can’t have friends until you learn how to be one.   I believe that some people just don’t deserve to be a part of your life.  I believe in true love and “happily ever after” regardless of my views on marriage.  I believe in the possibility of making dreams come true and fighting for what you want in life.  I believe that certain people just can’t be trusted.  I believe that everything happens for a reason.  Take chances, make mistakes, live and learn but have no regrets because at some point it was exactly what you wanted.


I’m overly sarcastic and you will either love it or hate it … but don’t judge me until you get to know me.  I’m a huge sports nut and I’d rather play ball with the guys than go shopping with the girls.  I’ve learned to let go of certain things (and people) in my life – don’t let the past become your future.  I’ve learned to accept my life for the way it is and to make the most out of every day. I’ve learned that a glass bottle of wine cures a really bad day.

I’m a tom-boy turned city girl, just trying to figure out what I want in life, relationships, friendships and my career.  I have endured some of life’s most challenging moments, like losing both of my parents by age 20 and surviving cervical cancer.  Those are the moments that truly tested my strength and endurance and made me realize that life’s too short to hold a grudge or start a fight or take someone (or something) for granted.

In 2009 I decided to make that life-changing decision that I have been putting off for four years.  I'm fighting my quarter-life crisis and pursuing my dreams.  I'm ready for a new beginning, new memories, and continuing my road to inner happiness.

Always looking forward, never looking back.


Thursday, June 5, 2008

street cred

 Experiences shape our lives.

I started writing in journals and diaries when I was 12 years old.  At the time, writing didn't really mean much to me, except that it was my creative outlet.  Now, over a decade later, writing has given me a new meaning.  I write because I love it; I'm passionate about it. I've even taken myself to the public spotlight:


CURRENT PROJECTS:

Philadelphia Cancer Examiner
(October 2009 - present)
  • I write creative and informative articles on cancer news and local stories on cancer advocacy groups, survivors and events in Philadelphia.
Brand-Yourself.com
(March 2010 - present)
  • I interview Personal Branding and Social Media professionals and write posts on-line
Joonbug.com
(May 2010 - present)
  • contribute 4-6 articles a week on current events, restaurant reviews and nightlife events in the Philadelphia area.

     PUBLISHED:


       FEATURED:
      •  Shape and Glamour magazines - Hitting the Ground Running (July 2010 & September 2010 issues)

        (click here to read the article)

          life list

          "What do you want to do?"

          ...is a question I get asked frequently.  The answer is much more complicated.  I want to do a lot of things - travel, sight see, love, laugh.  But most importantly, I want to be able to look back on my life and know that I've done everything I have ever wanted to do.

          No regrets, right?
          1. visit all 50 states (airports don't count)
            (as of 3/23/2010 - PA, NY, OH, MA, CT, DE, NJ, NY, MD, FL, VA, WVA, WI, IL, MI, GA, SC, NV, CA, WA)
          2. take a yoga class
          3. take a spinning class
          4. take a rowing class (10/13/09)
          5. visit the Grand Canyon, Arches and Hoover Dam
          6. go indoor rock climbing (10/13/09)
          7. go outdoor rock climbing
          8. pay off all of my debt
          9. Go to Las Vegas (2.16.2009 - Sin City Shootout Hockey Tournament)
          10. work or study abroad
          11. visit South Korea
          12. finish and publish my memoir
          13. live out West for at least one year 
          14. find my birth parents in South Korea
          15. adopt one child from South Korea
          16. meet at least 9 bloggers
            (7/7/09 in Philadelphia and 8/15/09 in NYC for the NYC Blogger Meetup - Maxie, Phampants, Passionista, Katie, Doniree, Rachel, Ashley, Jaime, Lacey)
          17. experience wine tasting  (5/30/09 in Detroit, MI)
          18. complete a sprint triathlon
          19. complete an ironman
          20. go wine tasting in Napa Valley, CA
          21. go on a cruise
          22. go backpacking in Europe
          23. visit Australia and New Zealand
          24. walk across the 13 famous bridges around the world 
          25. visit every Major League ballpark in the United States
            (as of 7/13/2010 - Citizens Bank Park, Philadelphia Phillies; PNC Park, Pittsburgh Pirates; Fenway Park, Boston Red Sox; Tigers Stadium, Detroit Tigers)
          26. touch the Pacific Ocean.
          27. road trip across the country.
          28. visit the Eiffel Tower
          29. ride in a hot air balloon
          30. get published (That's What Friends are For - Coping Magazine, May/June 2010 Issue)
          31. visit Jamaica 
          32. learn how to surf 
          33. go ziplining in Costa Rica
          34. buy a house
          35. run across the Golden Gate Bridge
          36. meet Oprah Winfrey
          37. throw the first pitch at a baseball game
          38. win a dek hockey championship (Sin City Shootout - Las Vegas, NV; Holiday Bash - Aston, PA; Sun-shine Shoot Out - Tampa, FL)
          39. climb the Great Wall of China
          40. Get a 2nd tattoo (6.1.2010 - Tampa, FL
          41. ride a jet ski (8.22.2010 - Honeoye Lake, NY)
          42. Attend a Broadway Show in NYC  (Chicago & 42nd Street - 11.2.2004)
          43. No meat for one week.
          44. Tour the White House &  U.S. Capitol (U.S. Capitol - 5.13.2010)
          45. Visit Mall of America
          46. Attend a Fashion Show (either in NYC or elsewhere).
          47. Send someone flowers on their birthday
          48. Appear on a television show [locally or nationally] to talk about cervical cancer/R2I awareness.
          49. Unplug for one week (i.e. spend 1 week without my Droid)
          50. Live in a city for one year without a car.
          51. Get my Masters in Public Administration

          Fabulous Writers

          coming soon...

          Sunday, June 1, 2008

          Numbers

          100.  I was adopted from South Korea when I was 6 months old and grew up in the States.  Because of this, I consider myself an Americanized Asian.
          99.  I’m left handed.
          98.  I have a tattoo on my right arm – the Japanese symbol for “endurance.”
          97.  I really, really want to get a second tattoo.
          96.  Both of my parents and all of my grandparents are deceased.  It’s made growing up a little tough, but I’ve worked hard to get to where I am and I never take it for granted.
          95.  My dream job is to be a Special Agent for the FBI.
          94.  My other dream job is to work full-time (and get paid to do so) for my non-profit organization.
          93.  I want to visit all 50 states before I die.
          92.  I want to visit my homeland of South Korea before I’m 30.
          91.  My first visit to a psychic, she told me I was going to lose someone very close to me.  Later that same year, my mother passed away.  I’ve seen a psychic every year since.
          90.  I want to live abroad for a year – preferably Asia or Europe, but Africa could be an interesting experience.
          89.  I believe in soul mates and everything happens for a reason.
          88.  I am a cervical cancer survivor.
          87.  My best friend and I have been BFF’s for 13 years and counting.  That in and of itself, tells you how important she is to me.
          86.  I despise when people spell my name wrong – especially in an email.  I didn’t get your email because you spelled my name incorrectly, Fucker. My parents sure did make it tough.
          85.  I was named after Katharine Hepburn.
          84.  I hate talking on the phone – I’d much rather text or gchat.
          83.  I participated in my very first (and very last) photo shoot in April 2009 at Franklin Field at the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia.  It was for an HPV advertorial that was published in Glamour and Shape magazines in 2009.
          82.  I love cooking.  In my next life, I want to come back as a professional chef.
          81.  I love playing sports and being active.  I find myself too bored when I’m not constantly doing something.
          80.  I love drinking wine.  Preferably Riesling.  The best Riesling I’ve had to date was from a vineyard in Michigan.
          79.  I love wineries and wine tasting.
          78.  I never leave my house without my keys, crackberry and chapstick.
          77.  I am fiercely independent.
          76.  I hate crowds (at malls, at stores at bars, etc.) but I love living in a big city.  Weird?
          75.  I love John Mayer.  ‘Nuff said.
          74.  I love taking pictures and wish I had the time to take up photography.
          73.  I hate public restrooms and when people leave the toilet seat (and toilet cover) up.
          72.  I’ve met a few bloggers in real life and I have to admit, they are awesome.
          71.  I’m slightly obsessed with post-it-notes.  I use them every day at work and I have them all over my desk.
          70.  I never thought I’d end up in Philadelphia after college.  In fact, I told myself I wouldn’t end up here.  I’ve been living here for nearly five years.  Funny how things work out.
          69.  My brothers are the two most important people in my life and I would do anything for them.
          68.  95% of my friendships are with men.  This is because I don’t get along with girls very well.
          67.  I’m a tom-boy-turned-city girl.
          66.  I’d rather watch sports and drink beers with the boys than go shopping with the girls.
          65.  I’m a die hard Pittsburgh Steelers and Pittsburgh Panthers fan and I wouldn’t have it any other way.  City of Champions, bitches.
          64.  Primanti Brother’s is the best sandwich place ever.  Mainly because it’s a Pittsburgh thing, but also because where else can you get a gigantic sandwich topped with coleslaw and fries?
          63.  I hate Philly cheesesteaks.
          62.  I rarely eat red meat.
          61.  I need to eat more fish.
          60.  I’m trying to eat more healthy but it’s so hard giving up french fries and pizza.
          59.  I drink malibu rum like it’s my j-o-b.
          58.  My senior year of college I drank every day.  Yes, EVERY DAY.  Maybe that’s why I’m an alcoholic.  And maybe that’s why my liver hates me.
          57.  My first trip to Vegas I got propositioned for a threesome and mistaken for a prostitute.  Ironic that it was the best. trip. ever?  Yes.
          56.  I was ranked the #7th best hurdler in Pennsylvania my senior year of high school.  I was also ranked #14th best triple-jumper in Pennsylvania.  I probably could have competed on the collegiate level if I wanted to, but instead I chose a then-relationship and and education over playing sports.  Looking back on it now, I completely regret that decision.
          55.  I really want to become fluent in Korean.
          54.  I want to find my birth parents when I visit Korea, but I’m afraid of being rejected by them.  They gave me up for a reason, afterall.
          53.  I was diagnosed with depression when I was 20, right after my mother passed away.  Six years later and I sometimes still struggle with it.
          52.  I love amusement parks and roller coasters.  Kennywood’s got nothing on Six Flags.
          51.  I don’t really like the [dirty] Jersey Shore.  I wish I lived closer to the Carolina’s where the real beaches are.
          50.  I collect elephants.  I know, it’s weird.  Don’t judge me.  I’ve been collecting them since I was a little girl and whenever I buy a house, I’m going to get a big bookcase for all of my elephants.

          MY BATTLE

          You always remember those moments that change your life - you will always remember what you were doing and how you felt.  You will always remember that you can't take those moments back - so you accept the change and keep pushing forward, despite how hard it will be.

          I remember that moment like it was yesterday....

          I was 23 years old, settling into a new(ish) city, a good job and spending whatever free time I had with friends or playing sports.  I received a phone call from my gynecologist a couple days after getting my annual exam. 

          "We found abnormal cells in your cervix,"

          My heart raced.

          "But don't worry, I'm sure it's nothing.  We get a lot of abnormal paps that don't turn into anything."

          Frankly, I had no idea what she meant by "turn into anything."  But I didn't really think twice about what she said, so I continued with my day like it was any other.  A few hours later, I received another phone call from my gynecologist.

          "You have Stage IIA cervical cancer."

          I dropped my cell phone the moment I heard that and tears started pouring down my face.  Cancer was all I heard.  And it was enough to send me into tears.

          The next day I went to see an oncologist.  He recommended I get a hysterectomy.  I wanted to know how the hell I got this.  He told me I had contracted a sexually transmitted disease - HPV.  I had no idea what HPV was, except that it stood for Human Papillomavirus. 

          HPV is the most common sexually transmitted disease in the U.S.  80% of all sexually active women will test positive for HPV by age 50, and while most cases of HPV go away on their own, when it doesn't, it can turn into genital warts or cervical cancer.  Mine turned into cervical cancer, and not over a few years, but over a few short months.  That's the thing about HPV - all it takes is one time, one guy, one girl. 

          I told my oncologist that I wasn't ready to give up the option of bearing children.  I was 23 and planned to have kids of my own one day.  So I started radiation treatments - every day for six months.  Then it was every other day for six more months.  The treatments did a toll on my body.  I have never been that sick in my life - nausea, vomiting, fatigue.  Most days I was too weak to even get out of bed, let alone go to work or run at the gym. 

          When I found out the radiation wasn't working well enough, I started chemotherapy treatments.  Those were even worse.  I started losing my hair and that's when I became even more self conscious about myself.  No guy wants to date a bald woman.  To the outsider I looked like a normal, pretty woman, but to myself I looked sick and disgusting.  Those were the moments when I started giving up on myself and realizing that living through something like this just wasn't worth it.  I had officially sunk to my absolute lowest point in life (and cancer treatments).

          But through all of the emotional and physical pain I went through, I finally beat my cancer and I am now in remission.  I beat cancer.  God, that feels so good to say. 

          Now, I'm taking the steps to eradicate this preventable disease.  Over 4,000 women die from cervical cancer each year. 

          Looking back, I wish I had known more about HPV and cervical cancer.  But I can't continue looking back on my life - a life I almost lost to cancer.  I have to look forward to all of the wonderful things that lie ahead of me.  I have to do whatever I can to save women's lives from this deadly disease.

          My best friend and I started a non-profit organization, Run 2 Inspire, one year after my diagnosis because we both truly believe that no other woman should EVER have to suffer the emotional and physical pain that I went through.  We may be small, but we're large in raising awareness.  And we will make a difference and help educate men and women. 

          We're saving women's lives.  Your life could be next.


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